Sober

Sober now for not that long
strange, feels longer
just checked a calendar
guess I was wrong

Its amazing when you go without
how much clarity there is
Still I miss it no denying
But each day that passes I feel a bit stronger

Making a commitment to be pain free isn’t easy
Its probably one of the hardest things Ive had to do.
To think I did this all to myself seems so stupid
I've learned so much
and hope I've taught a little too

Letting go of all this anger has been rough
All that rejection takes its toll
Then I stop and think about how selfish I’ve been
How I've never had much to offer
And even if I did, there would be little to give

How everything I’ve felt has been my decision
And how now I’ve learned to make better ones
Yet in the back of my mind and in the back of my heart
In that little secret spot no one sees
In that place that wont let me lie
I still wonder what could be

Sober now for no that long
but as time passes and my spirit heals
I know I will be me again soon
Just me again
Sober without you.